Just some random thoughts

I resigned from my job last week.. It was the first time throughout my 12 years of working professionally that I quit my job before I get a new one.. I felt liberated and yet incredibly anxious at the same time.. I was always the planner, the careful meticulous planner who doesn’t like much surprises.. My colleagues were quite shocked that I quit my job, especially at this point in time when the economy is so bad and lots of people are retrenched or couldn’t find any jobs.. I surprised even myself..

I realized that something was not quite right with me since 6 years ago after I gave birth to my daughter.. I was slowly losing interest in things that used to excite me, it was like there’s a glass panel between me and the world.. But at that point in time, I was also experiencing major stress coping as a new mother, my family had major issues and fights with my husband over how to raise our daughter was very common.. I didn’t pay much attention to it then.. Then things got bad for me at the beginning of 2020.. I mean there wasn’t any drama in my family or my workplace but I found out that I seem to have lost the will to live. I wasn’t trying to attempt suicide or anything but life has lost its meaning for me. I felt such immense guilt especially when I look at my 2 children. I had my son in 2018, 4 years after my daughter was born. When I look at them, I knew that I love them but this love was smothered underneath this thick glass wall that kept me isolated from the whole world. I told my husband and he was dismissive at that time. I remembered that I kind of broke down at that time. He had an aunt who had depression and attempted suicide quite a few times over the years. He attributed it to her “having not much to do and being too free”. I was so angry, I could feel my anger even through this thick glass world. People do not attempt suicide because they are “too free” and “don’t have anything better to do”! Around February this year, his aunt hanged herself and this time, it was permanent. Her husband found her body and had a heart attack. He passed away too. It was a great tragedy. It was then that my husband finally took me seriously.

I’m not sure how things are going to go for me from now on. I think I will be seeking treatment. For now, I’ll be updating my blog as and when I can. I’m not sure.. Thank you for accompanying me even though I do not know you guys in person. And yet surprisingly, sometimes the deepest darkest secrets are easier to share with strangers than your own loved ones.

Review – Dr Jart Ceramidin Cream Mist

Hi guys, this is another long overdue post that I found in my “pending” folder from way back in May 2019.. ^_^” Anyway, this product is one that I found while browsing instagram back then and it was a new product at that point in time.. I had a hunch that I would like it since my skin really likes the Dr Jart Ceramidin range so I bought it online from Korea.. Since then, I think I had already gone through 3 to 4 bottles of this products so you might guess that I really do like it a fair bit! In fact, I think that Dr Jart’s ceramidin cream mist is the bomb!

So why do I like it?

Just take a look at the ingredients guys! It’s super hydrating, soothing and has loads of ceramides to repair my skin barrier. The mister itself is so very fine that it feels like a cloud of hydrating goodness descends on my skin whenever I use it. The product itself is a thin runny liquid that feels weightless on the skin. I love using this facial mist after I acid tone and it instantly soothes my skin, making it feel less of the stinging from the acid and I’m ready to go onto the next step. Major love for this product! Well done Dr Jart!

Review – Drunk Elephant A-Passioni Retinol Cream

Drunk Elephant A-Passioni Retinol Cream
I realize that I hardly take photos of products when they are new.. Heh..

So I finally want to renew my blog and found this draft in my folder and it was dated May 2019.. ^_^”

Anyway, as usual, ingredients of the product are as below:

Ingredients:

Water/Aqua/Eau, Glycerin, Coco-Caprylate, Stearic Acid, Coconut Alkanes, Glyceryl Stearate, Niacinamide, Caprylic/Capric Triglyceride, Cetearyl Alcohol, Pentylene Glycol, Passiflora Edulis Seed Oil, Retinol, Simmondsia Chinensis (Jojoba) Seed Oil, Sclerocarya Birrea Seed Oil, Prunus Armeniaca (Apricot) Kernel Oil, Cetyl Ethylhexanoate, Palmitoyl Tripeptide-1, Palmitoyl Tetrapeptide-7, Brassica Oleracea Acephala Leaf Extract, Brassica Oleracea Italica (Broccoli) Extract, Tetrahexyldecyl Ascorbate, Chrysin, Persea Gratissima (Avocado) Oil, Linoleic Acid, Linolenic Acid, Ceramide NP, Xanthophylls, Phytosphingosine, Phytosterols, Jojoba Esters, Physalis Pubescens Fruit Juice, Stearyl Glycyrrhetinate, Oryza Sativa (Rice Bran) Extract, Glycine Soja (Soybean) Oil, Carthamus Tinctorium (Safflower) Seed Oil, Palmitoyl Hexapeptide-12, Cetyl Palmitate, Trehalose, Lauric Acid, Sodium Hyaluronate Crosspolymer, Olea Europaea (Olive) Fruit Oil, Glucosamine HCL, Tocopheryl Acetate, Coco-Caprylate/Caprate, Pisum Sativum (Pea) Extract, Tocopherol, Bambusa Vulgaris Leaf/Stem Extract, Phenoxyethanol, Caprylyl Glycol, Carbomer, Trideceth-6 Phosphate, N-Hydroxysuccinimide, Ceteareth-20, Sodium Hydroxide, Laureth-23, Steareth-20, Propanediol, Chlorhexidine Digluconate, Polysorbate 20, Trisodium Ethylenediamine Disuccinate, Chlorphenesin, Potassium Sorbate, Ethylhexylglycerin.

How did the Drunk Elephant A-Passioni Retinol Cream fare?

Drunk Elephant states that A-Passioniā„¢ Retinol Cream is a clean, cutting-edge formula that combines 1.0% vegan retinol with nourishing, superfood-rich ingredients to dramatically diminish the appearance of fine lines, deep wrinkles and sun damage revealing a vibrant, younger-looking complexion. It is also 100% free of essential oils, silicones and fragrance. Please do note that it is not recommended for use while pregnant or breastfeeding.

I’ve been using it for around 1 year plus and I think it’s a good time to talk about it.. First of all, it’s Strong! OK? So first time retinol users, please be very careful about using it. My skin is very used to retinol, or so I thought, but this DE retinol made my skin purge for the first month and my skin was really quite dry and sensitive. I had to stop all other actives during that time because my skin just wasn’t having it! The retinol purge made all the pimples came out so I was breaking out like mad for the first month. However, after around 2 months, my skin FINALLY started to calm down and return back to sorta normal. I still cannot use this retinol without buffering and I’m only using it on alternate nights. My skin looks much brighter, smoother and clearer now. Fine lines on my forehead are also reduced. One thing that I noticed after using retinol for so long is that my skin is finally very much not prone to clogging anymore. I used to be very prone to getting clogged pores but now my skin is pretty smooth. Lastly, unlike what Drunk Elephant recommended, I really really wouldn’t advise you to use this in the daytime. Your skin is fighting against the sunshine, pollution and maybe air conditioning in the daytime. It really doesn’t need a strong retinol to make things worse. Final thoughts: Use it with caution, love the final results!